I've Had It!

That's it. 
I'm throwing that damn scale out the window. 
It doesn't serve any purpose except for upsetting me & making me feel unhealthy (unless it's a rare occasion when it actually makes me feel good about myself. Which is kind of jacked too)

I found this funny thing & it made me feel a little better

Oh, you have no idea how strong my desire to walk down the street wearing only my Ray bans, birds-a-blazin' this morning. 
However, after stepping on my scale I took off my running shoes & got back in bed because I seriously just wanted to hide under my covers & never see the world again. 

Sigh. 

Sunday brunch. Sunday brunch is what did it. 

True story

When I go somewhere that has healthy options, I like to sing the restaurant's praises for helping a gal stay fit. Moonshine Patio Bar & Grill is not that place. But, their brunch is legendary & my willpower was low so curiosity got the best of me.  
I'm sure I could have gone healthier, but when I pay for an all you can eat- I really feel like I should get my money's worth. 
Oh, did I not mention it was an all you can eat buffet? Have I also failed to mention before how I consider buffets a personal challenge? Because I really,really do. 
There was the good- deviled eggs, a light pasta salad, a fruit bowl, steamed greens
The not so bad- pesto cheesey eggs, roasted potatoes
Then there was dessert. 

"Our specialty is our bread pudding" Said the waitress. 
 "Whatthefuck is bread pudding" I asked myself. 
Oh, I found out. 
I found out exactly whatthefuck bread pudding was. Several times. 

Sigh. As I told Steve this morning, I need to quit screwing myself all up on the weekend. To which he nodded and said he loved me because there's really nothing anyone can say to me when I'm in a "I hate my body/ I hate myself" set of mind. So, I tried to refocus my energy on the here. The now. 
What I can do here. What I can do now to make myself the healthiest Katy I can be. 
I mean, what's the point of beating myself up for Sunday's brunch? (ugh! I mean, it wasn't even a freaking special occasion & I ate like it was my damn last meal)

So. I am trying things a little differently. I've started reading this book because I think maybe I need a reminder of why it's good to eat well- outside of the results I see on a scale. I've been following Kimberly Snyder on Pinterest for a while. I've glanced at the general idea of her book & dietary teachings. It's a primarily vegan meal plan- which is fine with me- that focuses on cleansing your body with the food you eat every day- not just after a huge splurge. I'm not very far in, but so far I'm finding intersting. And what I love most is that she says no scale & no calorie counting & I say "O-FUCKIN-KAY."


I'll let you know what I think when I get more into it. 
So, I think I really am going to push my weigh-ins to once a month because "uuuugh", ya know?

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