I was forced to take a rest day due to stressful preexisting conditions, but hopefully I'll be back in the game tomorrow.
When stressed, it's common to turn to a source of distraction which many do in many ways. Overindulgence is a common outlet (like, if I overindulge in these kittens, all I will feel is kittens & nothing else- not even stress will get through all. these. damn. kittens.).
My indulgence of choice usually comes in the edible form (I'm not even a cat person. I don't know why I was overloading on kittens earlier), but I was pretty proud of myself today- even though I did go over my caloric allowance.
I treated myself to a larger than necessary greek yogurt-honey-peanut butter- banana medley, but I did resist the HARD craving for an entire pizza onto myself (extra cheese & bread sticks, please). I don't even like pizza all that much- that's retarded. Of course I like pizza. What I'm saying is that it's not my usual craving when seeking escape through gluttony. But there I was- looking up the nearest Papa John's, just-a-daydreamin' about the greasy, cheesiness.
But something rare happened. I stopped to think. And ya know what? I thought about my upcoming weigh in on Friday.
This is huge.
This is kind of a breakthrough.
As anyone with the tendency to seek escape through over-anything-ing you know it's rare that the little angel on your shoulder gets through to you.
And that was a good moment.
So, I had my treat. It was great & all that peanut butter is now sitting heavy in my stomach. Then I watched really fucking gross videos on youtube until the cravings were nothing but a distant disgusting, "oh my god how could anyone ever eat anything after seeing what I just saw" style memory
(DO NOT CLICK HERE) (or here!) (unless your trying not to eat a whole pizza)
So, tomorrow is another day. And then the day after that is my weekend- in which I have several fitness excursions planned. Including Zumba, Yoga & maybe even a spin class. Hopefully I'll have some time to sit down and remember to treat myself right, as I hope you all do every day.
Remember: Your demons are just like the demons you see in scary movies or books. They are built from a combination of fear & imagination & can only hurt you & drive you crazy once you create them & let them run wild. You are flawed & that makes you you & I think you are beautiful.